When the clouds move away...

They always tell you to 'Look for the Silver Lining..', that behind every storm cloud there is always sunshine...well I found mine in the moonlight...shining as bright as any sun, taking away the breath in me as it pushed through the dark laced sky.  YOU are that moon!  You pushed through the dark stormy sky that held me all those nights when I most felt alone.  You opened up a world I thought was long gone....you are my moon!  Look at you, look what you have done to my heart!  It is filled to the brim with all the love I had believed could never be again...the love I had not felt since childhood...the type of love that can only be placed there by Angels.  You and I....the first, and the last...I {{{LOVE}}} You...

Before I forget who I am....

          I don't EVER want to forget who I am or where I have came from.  Sometimes we do that with our day to day lives.  We let the things, people, and situations cloud our minds so much that we forget why we are here.  I asked God to forgive me today...He is the only ONE who truly can, yes?  My mind was wandering to and fro for the past year and I let things get in the way of my relationship with Him.  It took me watching a video of T.D. Jakes to remind me of who I am...not was...I am the one who went away, God has been with me all the while.  I thank you Father for taking me through the steps that you have, the good times, and the really rough times....they have made me who I am.  I know I have a long way to go in this life but want to make sure when I do go home to You, that I will be worthy of seeing Your face.  I Love You God.  Thank You for saving me. <3

Dogwoods...

I see these and they remind me of North Carolina.  North Carolina reminds me of home.  Home reminds me of you....I love you...

If tomorrow never comes....

If tomorrow never comes 
Will he know how much I loved him 
Did I try in every way to show him every day 
That he's my only one 
And if my time on earth were through 
And he must face the world without me 
Is the love I gave him in the past 
Gonna be enough to last 
If tomorrow never comes~excerpt from Garth Brooks (changes mine)

Why must I wait....

Some days I can make it through without knowing.  And other days I feel like this rose, so heavy with a feeling of an unsure future.  Why must I wait?  You said it was not fair to me, and at first I did not agree...but now the wait seems to take it's toll on me day after day when I don't hear from you...so no, it's not fair.  My days seem longer when I don't see your face, or hear your voice...Why must I wait?  Bring this rose a drink of water....before the petals start dropping one by one...

We need a day...

I would have never thought that in this wide, wide world, that I would ever hear from you again....you made yourself known to me in that box and hit send...I had never gotten over you completely, you must have felt the same otherwise why hit the send button?  It has been a long 35 years give or take a few...something must have kept us wondering and thinking "what might have been..".  Well, now that you have found me, we have talked, we have pondered, and we have made our thoughts know to one another.  You are there...and I am here...wish now I would have not left the state of Alabama..I would be one state away and not 4 or is it 5?  Either way it is too many....but I did not know then what I know now.  Would it have made a difference?  Oh I believe in my heart it would have very much.  I think, "We need a day" just one...to make a memory become a reality...this did not happen by chance, we have both been wondering for years, and I believe it is time we put a "And they lived happily ever after" at the end of our story...it's long overdue.

This little fellow used to sit outside my bedroom window every morning during the winter in HH..he was a cutie!